Final Words .

hey , i think i've made my decision and im pretty sure about it . althou some part of my heart says its not the right choice but i have to do this . The longer i stay , the more hurt i'll get . so its better to be this way and i wont feel any pain , i guess . i've think clearly about it and dont worry okay i'll be fine , trust me ;') . we still gonna be friends like we used to and im keeping my promises that i wont leave you . i'll be your friend and we still can share some laughs and jokes together . haha and yes , i admit it . i do miss ur crap and those silly jokes that used to make me laugh like hell . The sweet memories that happened between us , i will always keep in my heart . im sure u'll be fine , hey you kan kuat :) . i tahu u kuat , u always figure things out on your own . so chillax nobody is gonna take your happiness away. there's people around you that loves and care so much about you including me . The hardest part of all is to let you go and i can promise you that you will always be in my mind . There is part of you that always stuck in my heart ,that is to be in love with you . I guess its better to stuck in there so i'll never forget how great you are and how beautiful your love is . I am greatful that i owned you and to have you but I guess this is the end of it . Im afraid to do so but I think im ready to take a big step of my life which is letting you go . I cant forget about you and never will . Im not doing this because i dont trust you , yes i do trust you infact im still in love with you but i feel there's something that has to be done . Im doing this because i want you to be happy and to smile again like the way you used to . Im sorry and im trully sorry if i hurted you so bad . I didn't meant to do that , its just my feelings that show you how much i want you to be mine. Im sorry that i have to do all this . i really do . I think its not with me where you belong . its him where you supposed to be with . Its not about jealousy thingy , my jealousy part is done. Dont worry my jealousy wont come near to bother you anymore. You are free . Its fate that you belong with him . plus he is your soulmate and your first love . I just wanna that i love you sincerely syg but i have to do this:( . be happy always okay and study for your upcoming finals , jgn dok asyik tgk movie je :D . I guess i've nothing to say left , but im sure i'll write some more about this. Im taking a good sleep and im hoping tomorow will be a good day ;) . 

 goodbye love .

Je t'aime

thank you for being part of me and thank you for letting me to love you. I appreciate it alott .

it was great and beautiful .

and i guess im dancing this dance alone now but i'll always see you .  

you will always be my gewang :D
if you're reading this , text me soon . i got something to tell .

assalamualaikum .

16 march 2010
this is when my heart pumps quickly when it founds you .

I made this just for you .

I remember us,
the way we used to be,
I'd hold you in my arms,
your smile so sweet to me,

But now when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone now,
but when I close my eyes
All I see is you.

The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,

I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes

All I see is you.

All the love I am sending,
the memories I won't sell,
I know there must be an ending,
to the story I will tell,

I dream only of your love,
and happiness in life,
I try not to think of you,
but when I close my eyes 

All I see is you.

I love you . . .